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Why Do I Write This Blog???

The easiest (and probably the most honest) answer to that question is: I don't know. It all started in the summer of 2005, when I went to Crawford, Texas ( a.k.a. the home of the prez's ranch, a.k.a. the home of Camp Casey) to support Cindy Sheehan. I wanted the world to know that, contrary to what one could read in the mainstream media, the peace movement was alive and well and large numbers of Americans did not support the war in Iraq. I wanted people to know that thousands of Americans were willing to travel to Texas and tolerate the heat, humidity, and bugs in order to support a grieving mother whose new purpose was to shine a light on the lies that led to the war and to bring home our troops so that no other mother would have to know the pain that she felt.

Over time, this blog has become more of an exploration of who I am, my spirituality, and how life works. I love life's complexities, exploring the shades of gray. I want to, as Rainier Maria Rilke said,

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."

Maybe my blog is just one big question about what is needed in order for people to take the time to love and cherish each other and our earth. Maybe someday, I will "live along some distant day into the answer."

In the meantime, thank you for joining me on my journey. I welcome you to share yours with me

 

Monday, May 29, 2006

On This Day

Today is my dad's 86th birthday (Isn't he cute?). Last year, on his 85th birthday, he had heart surgery - surgery that probably bought him this last year of life and will continue to help keep him around for who knows how long.

Today is also Casey Sheehan's birthday. He would've been 27, but he was killed at the age of 24. He died on 04-04-04 in Iraq. He didn't live long enough to get married and have children and grandchildren like my dad has been able to do.

My dad fought in World War II. He was in a submarine in the South Pacific. I remember my mom talking about my dad's bad dreams that would cause him to make loud and scary noises in his sleep. And I can remember hearing him yelling during one of those nightmares more than 20 years after the war had ended.

It's funny how the mind works. When I was young, I thought that the United States was the greatest country. We fought a noble war that saved the world, and my dad was part of that. He had these nightmares as a result of the trauma caused by being torpedoed while in a submerged submarine. That would certainly give me nightmares! But I never put it together that my dad was a part of a crew that was also bombing other men in other subs. I don't know if the men on my dad's submarine were responsible for the deaths of fathers and brothers and husbands. I would guess so. I can't ask him at this stage of his life. Many parts of his experiences during the war have been too emotional all along. If something doesn't come out naturally, now is not the time to push.

I don't know what the world would be like today if we would not have entered World War II. Everything is much more complex than the information given by the history books. Why is an American a hero for killing, but a German or a Japanese person is the enemy for doing the same thing? They are all pawns of the powers that caused the wars in the first place. I am not sure that hero is a word that applies to anyone in war. Victim comes to mind. Then again, we are all complicit and can't claim victimhood.

Today I think of Cindy Sheehan and the pain that she must be feeling as she knows this is the third of a long line of Casey's birthdays that she won't be able to celebrate. Meanwhile, we will go to my Dad's in a little while to celebrate his long life. One man died young at the hand of the "enemy" while another man lived long by defeating another "enemy".

posted by Carol at 9:01 PM


2 Comments:

Anonymous Janet K. said...

Carol, I appreciate your reflections. I, too, find it puzzling that the label for the killer depends on which side of the fence you sit. I find myself noticing more and more how soldiers and veterans are honored at public gatherings for their efforts to achieve peace, yet peaceworkers such as Peace Corps members, Christian Peacekeepers, PeaceForce members and others who are working toward peace in other ways get no public recognition. Is it any wonder that children grow up wanting to be soldiers because the public hallows them so?
Janet K. Littleton

9:57 PM  
Blogger Carol said...

Good points, Janet. Re: "Is it any wonder that children grow up wanting to be soldiers because the public hallows them so?", we've got to do something about that. Can't wait for our "leaders" to do it.

2:36 PM  

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