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Thursday, June 28, 2007
The Little Things
Today I took a bath because I needed to wash my hair and get clean. This is really cool! I realized, while soaking in the hot water that makes my whole body smile, that lately I haven't been hopping into the tub straight from the bed in the mornings in order to be able to tolerate another day of life. Where a hot bath first thing used to be my way of easing the shoulder pain enough to function, I can now get up and do WHATEVER I WANT! I still have pain (mostly tolerable), and sometimes 1/2 a pain pill is called for, but I can get out of bed in the morning and be glad I'm doing it!
Just when I thought I wasn't getting better, a little light on the subject brings much psychological relief!
So, today, on my last day of physical therapy (thank you, insurance for paying your less than generous part - considering how much we pay you - and thank you, also, for cutting people off at some arbitrary number and leaving them owing wads and not so inclined to pay more exorbitant fees out of pocket.), I come out better, but not the person I was before. And that is a good thing. The body is more limited in movement, but I have learned much through this process. Maybe, just maybe, I will eventually be as good as new AND have the lessons learned, too!
But it doesn't matter. This is what is right now.
And I wonder... when we look at all of the things we'd like to change in the world, do we notice what HAS changed? Do we see the beautiful actions that are being done by many people? Are we aware of the little things, like baths not needed or an elder's smile? And do we appreciate the gifts embedded in the harder things?
It's all a part of the whole.
Just when I thought I wasn't getting better, a little light on the subject brings much psychological relief!
So, today, on my last day of physical therapy (thank you, insurance for paying your less than generous part - considering how much we pay you - and thank you, also, for cutting people off at some arbitrary number and leaving them owing wads and not so inclined to pay more exorbitant fees out of pocket.), I come out better, but not the person I was before. And that is a good thing. The body is more limited in movement, but I have learned much through this process. Maybe, just maybe, I will eventually be as good as new AND have the lessons learned, too!
But it doesn't matter. This is what is right now.
And I wonder... when we look at all of the things we'd like to change in the world, do we notice what HAS changed? Do we see the beautiful actions that are being done by many people? Are we aware of the little things, like baths not needed or an elder's smile? And do we appreciate the gifts embedded in the harder things?
It's all a part of the whole.
Labels: shoulders
posted by Carol at 8:45 AM
2 Comments:
Well I think we miss a lot - when things are "ok" we often don't realize or appreciate what we have, we just 'expect' it.
And yes, the whole way insurance works these days is so frustrating.
I think you may still see improvements over time, God willing.
I am thinking that I will see improvements over time, also. Some of the medical people had expectations which I have not been able to meet and that threw me off - made me think something was really wrong with me, I'm failing. But I realize that I have to go at the pace my body will allow.
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