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Why Do I Write This Blog???

The easiest (and probably the most honest) answer to that question is: I don't know. It all started in the summer of 2005, when I went to Crawford, Texas ( a.k.a. the home of the prez's ranch, a.k.a. the home of Camp Casey) to support Cindy Sheehan. I wanted the world to know that, contrary to what one could read in the mainstream media, the peace movement was alive and well and large numbers of Americans did not support the war in Iraq. I wanted people to know that thousands of Americans were willing to travel to Texas and tolerate the heat, humidity, and bugs in order to support a grieving mother whose new purpose was to shine a light on the lies that led to the war and to bring home our troops so that no other mother would have to know the pain that she felt.

Over time, this blog has become more of an exploration of who I am, my spirituality, and how life works. I love life's complexities, exploring the shades of gray. I want to, as Rainier Maria Rilke said,

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."

Maybe my blog is just one big question about what is needed in order for people to take the time to love and cherish each other and our earth. Maybe someday, I will "live along some distant day into the answer."

In the meantime, thank you for joining me on my journey. I welcome you to share yours with me

 

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Everything Comes and Goes

Right now, we have four huge cottonwoods on our lot. They are old grandmothers and grandfathers - around 100 years old. In a few days, one of the beautiful giants will be cut down by the city. We will be spared the financial cost of this euthanasia, because this particular tree is right by the street. The city did give me the choice of whether to do it now or to wait, even though the tree doesn't have another ten years in him and he has been so chopped up he doesn't look very stylish anymore. The poor old tree has some bad health problems and it is right that we take him out of his misery. Still, it is almost like the death of a family member. I will miss him very, very much.

He's so big that I couldn't get him all in one photo without going down the street and including the whole neighborhood in the picture.

Here's his top:




Up close (Isn't he magnificent?):



And the yellow ribbon that says, "Here I am! I'm the one you're going to cut down!"


I did my best to measure the circumference of this tree today. It's around 12 1/2 feet around.

I love the way cottonwood leaves dance in the wind. I love the deeply grooved bark. I love how cottonwoods like to gather where there's a water source. I have had so much fun listening to baby northern flickers cheeping when their mom and dad brought food to the nest nestled within the big granddaddy trunk.

This tree has been the landmark that we mentioned so that people can find our home - just go to the house immediately past the cottonwood that sticks out into the street.

Keeping things in perspective, I know that there are people near the Gulf that wished they had a dry home right now - with or without a tree. There are people in the Middle East suffering losses so immense that I'm embarrassed to be talking about my tree.

But I'm still going to miss him...

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posted by Carol at 9:06 AM


12 Comments:

Blogger Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

I understand your sorrow, Carol. He is a magnificent being!

9:27 AM  
Blogger Carol said...

Thanks Nick.

10:34 AM  
OpenID dancingonabladeofgrass said...

What a majestic tree...

When they come to cut it down, would you be able to get them to let you have a piece that you might be able to get a woodturner to make into a bowl for you?

12:17 PM  
OpenID dancingonabladeofgrass said...

Just checked on the internet that you can in fact turn cottonwood and found this
http://home.comcast.net/~wskossack/boxes/nested_cottonwood.html

12:23 PM  
Blogger Carol said...

dancing,

Thanks for the info! I would have thought you couldn't do anything with cottonwood because the wood is so soft. I will definitely ask them to keep some for me - if I'm home when they cut it down. I have no idea when they'll come and I would be really sad if I arrived at home and found my beloved tree gone.

I think that I will at least tack a note on the tree so if I'm gone when they come, I can ask them to save me some of wood.

Thanks again for the idea! You're brilliant!

1:25 PM  
Blogger Indigo said...

Indigo Incarnates

I always feel sad when trees die. what the world needs is a lot more trees and a lot fewer humans.

3:23 PM  
Blogger Carol said...

Agree, Indigo.

I think that I want to be a tree next time.

4:32 PM  
Blogger San said...

I'm sorry you have to say goodbye to your cottonwood, Carol. I'm sure I would shed some tears at such a thing.

I have always had a thing for trees in particular. We lost some large pinons to drought and it was very sad. One that was far from the house we left standing after it died. Its bare limbs served as a protective shield for the little seedlings planted by the wind. Today that bare pinon is surrounded by a circle of grandchildren.

The dead pinons near the house had to removed, however. That's the way it goes sometimes. But as you know, our "spirit chair" sit on their stumps.

2:41 PM  
Blogger San said...

I mean "spirit chairS." Plural. Two of them. Spirits do travel in pairs sometimes, don't they?

2:43 PM  
Blogger Carol said...

San,

I, too, have a thing for trees. When I am feeling a need for a different perspective, I see and feel myself as a tree, just rooted in the ground and watching. Just witnessing with no opinion or preferences.

I love that you left the skeleton of the pinon to protect the grandchildren. That's so beautiful.

I didn't know about the spirit chairs on the stumps. Tell me more!

4:05 PM  
Blogger ThomasLB said...

We lost a huge oak tree a few years back. It's hard not to get attached to them.

11:49 AM  
Blogger Carol said...

Oak trees are so beautiful.

You're right that it's hard to not get attached. I don't think I'm going to try to.

7:40 PM  

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